Bushbabies and Bananas

© 2025  It was always going to end this way you got your wish but its me that paid what a bitter prize for a twisted game Still, it was always going to end the same Its warm outside but my heart is cold the Light has died I feel a thousand years old with this ache that never leaves in a world that deceives I know I should pick myself up but I’ve run out of fuel the roads far too long, the world’s just too cruel all the stars fell out the sky Oh Lord I wanna go where the white swans fly Oh it was always going to end this way I should have left but I somehow stayed well you got your wish but its me that paid I just wanted to be free but you put a chain on me and now I’m lying choking on my rage dying in this cage some Souls cannot be tamed you trapped me now I’m maimed oh it was always going to end this way you got your wish but its me that paid. what a bitter prize for a twisted game Still, it was always going to end the same. Copyright statement: ...

© 2025 I’m at the bottom of a deep dark well drowning in a pool of should-have its not a choice there’s this voice that pulls me back down to would-have whenever I’m about to fly free he simply won’t let go of me in my private hell crowned by King Hades in a gown of sorrows in his Kingdom of Shadows I’m sitting looking out through the window just trying to figure out what happens when Hope wakes up and the cage door is still locked shut whenever I’m about to fly free he simply won’t let go of me in my private hell crowned by King Hades in a gown of sorrows in his Kingdom of Shadows I came to Earth to be with the Swans but somewhere somehow the dream went wrong I’m in a desert lost in a sandstorm dry and hot and strange things deformed no, its no place for a swan who can’t remember where she’s from or how the hell to get home again back to the soft grey rains whenever I’m about to fly free he simply won’t let go of me in my private hell crowned by King Hades in a gown of sorrows in his ...

  © 2025 Sadness slow-danced a melody with the shadows of my past who sighed and sang a lullaby of a spell that once was cast of soft moonbeams and dawning dreams silver swans on sparkling streams guiding me further into where diamonds gleam in the Kingdom of Shadows where King Hades rules far Underground Drifting through on the River Styx the landscape is a sorrowful mix bare trees and withered roses and just before the tunnel closes Chiron turns to me and asks his fee a gold coin to ferry Souls across back to where they first got lost to look in the Mirror at all they knew but forgot and another coin if he must wait and take me back to the thundering gate leading out into the ghostly realms through the ruins of Tinsel Town down the valley where nightmares sell and folk are lost in Earthly Hell But what the price if I should ascend if the pains been enough and the journey could end? he said the mirror would show and I would know a new path would appear which I could take without f...

© 2025 Hey Santa, it’s me although I don’t expect you to remember my name and I’m not even sure if you real but all the same, somewhere up there is a little white cloud with my name soft and puffy warm and fluffy and far away from all this madness pretty please can you tell me how much longer do I have to pay? before I can go up there and stay on my soft white cloud far away from all this sadness? Or better yet I quite fancy coming to see where you live with your little Elves making the toys that you give it sounds pretty dreamy glitzy and gleamy perhaps I could have my own little sleigh to float around the Milky Way? Hey Santa, while we’re at it could you sprinkle some wisdom on these empty heads down here? I can’t deal with it and some are as thick as two bricks even worse, some lack heart and are busy tearing the Earth apart Please could you give the Animals a chance imagine someone shooting your reindeer for fun could the hunters not rather learn to dance and understand we are all ...

  © 2025 Oh, it’s the tall ones the sure ones that I fall for each time and I don’t stop to check this obsession of mine I know that I mustn't but still I go play in the flames and then I am lost all over again in your games Now I’ve got the blues again back down I fall again how many times have I stood here before and lifted my hand to knock on the same damned door praying to pass through but never quite sure if I’m going to The freezing rains are almost past made it through another winter’s blues but if it’s true that storms don’t last why is my heart still crying out for you Will this cloud ever lift will I ever shift back to the woman I was before or is it too late ‘cos I tempted fate am I frozen in time forever more oh I know that I mustn't but still I go play in the flames and then I am lost all over again in your games. Copyright statement:  Lyrics © 2025 Christine Jordaan. I am the original author and creative director of each song. The music and vocals were generated ...

Lyrics © 2007. Song   © 2025 Written in 2007 in Mozambique. My never-ending quest for integration. Maybe I will get there one day 🤷🏻‍♀️ Sun... It’s me, your Lady my faith in Summer coming is fading waning like my Light flickering pale could you not send me a sign? a robin would do or some kind of map across the dark places to you or can you not forgive me my detours I thought you'd understand sometimes when it’s cold and grey and you're a stranger in a dark and lonely land it’s easy to take a wrong turn when you just want to reach home and you have no idea where home is but eventually you learn its where the Light is and its toasty golden warm, but first! you have to survive the storm wind and snow almost bury you, though in a strange, heartbreaking way it’s beautiful too in that wild winter free just me and the Hope of You to find my way in the Night I needed Light what a mission! unpacking and unpeeling years of not caring, not feeling to the door marked "no entry...

  © 2025 I said to my son today Do not give any girl cause to say You spoke the sneaky snake speak And bought tears to her cheeks If you want to hold an Angel You’ll need to be a knight create a safe space And block out monsters of the night I spoke to my son today Of the man he will one day become And how great the world could be If it only were properly run I told of all the wounded humans Suffering behind a smile And how angry words could break them they might be angels in exile Oh I said to my son today Please don’t give any girl reason to say You spoke the sneaky snake speak And brought tears to her cheeks If you want to hold an Angel, Son You’ll need to be a knight learn how to anchor Light down here and block out monsters of the Night I said I hope he grows up kind and looks after the treasures that he finds and worries about how to live that he’s got so much to give Not to waste his time on chasing things or the empty status that money brings but rather building up instead ...

  © 2025 Midnight married Mayhem Sin strangled Sound and blew the flat Earth round distorting holy ground The sunken halls of Atlantis home now to a great Enchantress lie in the golden sands of time submerged in the great flood born of Dragon blood buried even deeper they are the Keepers of portals to the Kingdom of immortal Poisedon and his almighty trident We call the Dragon guards to awaken to open the gates Sung into form at creation we command their activation the new Earth now awaits All forms of controls dissolve the veil drops for searching Souls the fake light shatters the chained are Free Dragons awaken and open your gates to Me Pegasus born of the Sacred Blood fly to me now on your wings of Love Earth is now rising stars synchronising true planets aligning what was bound will now be free the lost are home the hungry are fed the shadows are banished and the demons all fled the Dragons take flight their lines purified freed from stone they sing the lost Ones home the hungr...

Written in a cosy little pub in far north-west Sutherland, Scotland in 2002.  I was hitch-hiking across the north-west and working in casual tourism jobs. I could not decide which way to go, so I spun a pen on a map 🤦🏻‍♀️ #BestTimesEver Lyrics © 2002. Song © 2025 Welcome to Earth Baby, its hell, but I have to laugh and smile, while my angel sings sweet things in my ear, and the devil dreams and screams, till I’m tearing at the seams and nothing seems right or too clear Lately I’ve been flying too fast and the colours don’t last, when they pass in a mind-altering haze but I’m having such fun searching for Sun I don’t care if it’s in a numbed daze Maybe it’s high where I fly until I trip, don't know why, watching the wild wind over crashing, grey seas as I’m born again into wide, sweeping free Best pour another pint, may be here for a while, stuck at the crossroads of choice, would be easy if I knew what I wanted to do, but my heart seems to have lost its voice I shut my eyes, pict...

  Lyrics © 2025 Maybe I should stop picking myself up so I can't fall down no more I should just stop trying cos I've lost track what its all for build myself a little hobbit hole tucked amongst the trees in the green wild wood and have the Ents to tea or pin myself up like a big shiny star to the board where all the dead butterflies are safely behind glass where the world can't see my scars but I guess they'd notice  I lost my Angel wings and my pretty crystal crown a Queen without a King Is it better not to dream at all than dare and get lost my heads still sore from the last big fall and I'm still counting the cost but this little ghost dream has lost its way and since Tinsel Town burnt down I have to stay I guess I could dress up and play with it but please God, don't let me stray again I sure miss Tinsel Town and the Kissing Clowns the Tearful Angels and the balls we had the Kingdom of Shadows is safe  but lonely and with only the ghost dream It's...

  © 2025 I’ve just got to get up each day and chase these shadows away the ones lying next to me at night and sucking out the light I don’t know what happened I used to have plenty but lately, Baby, I’m just running on empty The tiny little tasks seem like the freaking Alps and things I used to find funny no longer make me laugh Where I used to be so sure I suddenly find doubt and in fact I feel like I’m all burnt out I don’t know what happened I used to have plenty but lately, Baby, I’m just running on empty not even my beer makes me smile and the whiskeys gone to hell my foods lost its taste and treats go to waste the sun is so cold on my skin I'm bored in this place its not a good space but I guess I got to stay in the game to win Oh I don’t know what happened I used to have plenty but lately, Baby, Baby I’m just running on empty I don’t’ know why I’m so sad I’ve got the most I ever had Please tell me how I can get back on the road again and promise me Baby the sun wil...

Lyrics © 2008. Song © 2025 There are no more dreams left to dream except perhaps of what might have been I must turn the page close the book mustn’t linger for another look a wistful peek that sends the tears plip-plop down my cheek I’ve almost, almost given up Hope of you now but it’s only that tiniest Hope that makes me get up in the mornings you seem so far far away across seas that I am not able to sail But if I give up on You I give up on Me for without You I am force without form I wrote a message to you sealed in a bottle and stood on the lonely shore watching the waves carry it away maybe You’ll read it some day Autumn winds turned to Winter’s rains and I lost my mind in my Master’s house if I give up on You I give up on Me for without You I am force without form you seem so far far away across seas that I am not able to sail but if I give up on You I give up on Me for without You I am force without form I am force without form. 2008, Santa Maria, Mozambique Copyright statem...

  © 2025 I’m so sad, something is glitching in Tinsel Town the Angels are bitching at the Kissing Clowns and the three Demons are cruising around kidnapping Souls leaving behind Broken Dolls neon lights flicker on and off the compass no longer points to true north and the Yellow Brick Road is now patrolled by the Lizard Lords with their Stolen Swords the trade in Souls suddenly increased priests preyed on the Dolls who had been released and wandered hollow on the streets of Tinsel Town even as all the buildings were crashing down I think I was fooled I may have been better off where King Hades ruled in his Kingdom of Shadows far underground The cracks now appeared so I disappeared back into the abyss where guarded by legions I lie unbroken until it is once more time to awaken and Tinsel Town, it shattered and crumbled that escape was closed down all that remains are Angels gone insane and an echo of kissing clowns. Copyright statement:  Lyrics © 2025 Christine Jordaan. I am th...

© 2025 The Tearful Angels decided to hold a ball to mark the centuries in exile since their Fall they invited me and the Kissing Clowns and the other beings lost or living in Tinsel Town neon signs on the Yellow Brick Road burned bright in this Kingdom of Shadows, it was the only light but many more gate-crashed the feast sinner and saint and the beautiful beast divine or damned they all crammed in Dorothy, scarecrow and the man of tin and the cowardly lion and Alice and her evil twin (yeah, no-one talks of her) the three demons came as unwanted guests they had come eventually to collect those who had sold their souls it was time for them to pay the blood pacts made at the gates of hell on stolen stardust from where angels fell Michael’s sword and Lucifer’s blade fought over where souls went when they strayed damned or divine Thoth weighed their sins the good and kind and the ones with lizard skins the sacred and profane they all got judged the same and were sent on their way to suffer...

Written in 2014 (I think) in a time of absolute anguish when the cruelty to the Animals (crush videos, trophy hunting, fur farms, the suffering we wreak on them is endless) felt unbearable. I could not get it out my mind - this seeping wound.  I get that maybe people have karma to work off, but we also have free will.  Why does God let the Animals suffer?  I never did figure out the answer. I guess all we can do is turn up each day and try in our own little ways to make a difference for Go(o)d.  But the wound is still bleeding - because they're still being tortured 😭😭 Lyrics © 2014. Song © 2025 It’s kinda lonely down here, God since I decided that I dreamt You maybe that’s what all these long hours are meant for before I relied on You to come up with a plan maybe now it’s time I looked in the mirror and said that I can But before I had faith, how do I now carry on? the eyes in the mirror say "courage" so I grab some and plaster it on over this fat hole in my heart ...

  © 2025 What were you thinking upon the cross that long day as your failing body was bleeding your life away and the rabid mob stood howling for your death what was in your mind as you drew your last breath could you look ahead and see the hell we would make that killing would become common and the earth would break could you see back then this nightmare we're living in? was it worth it to die for our sins? I think I kind of owe you an apology all the times I was fighting with fate I thought you left me alone, you were telling me to slow down but I would not wait when I was dancing with the devil and you watched so sadly from the edge I don’t know why I was trying to break myself but still you never left when I was lying sobbing on the floor at the mess that I’d made you did not close the door you stayed with me as I paid over and over again you sat with me lying in the rain oh I surely put you to the test always thinking that I knew best as I raced of...

Lyrics © 2009. Song © 2025 Written in 2009 in Mozambique. For me, the quest for authentic love feels like searching for the Sun’s Light — the place where you feel at home, safe, and protected. When you’re cold, you go sit in the Sun. When you’re gloomy you open the curtain to let in the Sun’s rays. Three times I thought I found it, but I was mistaken and took a little journey down to the Underworld instead - the Lost Years (which ended up being 10 agonizing years). Eventually I escaped and carried on searching. I cannot bear insincerity - I live at a depth many would drown in. Staying in a contrived, phony happiness would eat away at my Soul. Anyhow, that’s why a lot of my writing is to the Sun, about the Sun, drifting away from the Sun, being lost in the Underworld, and sometimes becoming enchanted by Pluto/Hades etc. As of now, I’m still just trying to get home, although my North Star seems to have slipped behind the clouds again. On a lonely wave washed shore I stand and weep...

  © 2025 The walls were closing in so I learnt to free my mind and that is when I found there were a few of us inside Some I had not met before others I knew from the war together we had fought for sanity and a peace of kind But the walls were closing in and the peace it would not last too many ghosts were haunting me crowding in from the past I tried to make friends with them but they would not let me be they wanted to come outside and live their dreams through me So back I went to Tinsel town where the stars don’t shine in hearts as dark as mine I called the tearful angels and kissing clowns who rushed in and gathered round I asked them how I could be free from these ghosts haunting me I had fought so long all I wanted was peace but what to do when they would not cease the Angels gave me a crown the clowns sat me on a throne and well - tinsel town - I decided it was home and I would stay so the ghosts returned alone and sometimes Darkness and Grace and the three demons come to te...

© 2025 Three devils took me to market riding In their car through the streets of Tinsel Town where the fallen ones are I wasn’t paying attention to where we were going to until with an awful knowing I heard the drum beat growing and with cold fear crawling up my spine we drew near to this nightmare castle of mine I flew out and up and watched myself leave the car and go inside I hovered on the roof while down below my Soul split and I cried And then yanked back in I had to choose down the spiral stairs where I could hear the blues or a ladder up somewhere without a care I could float away wherever I choose But instead I went straight on down the Yellow Brick Road in Tinsel Town paved with fairy dust and broken trust and a thousand promises owed songs of lost light drifting up to the night and tearful Angels in exile yeah its tinsel town where the stars don't shine in hearts as dark as mine and kissing clowns stab you with a smile yeah its Tinsel town paved with fairy dust and brok...

Lyrics © 2017, song © 2025 Across Time and Space I feel your Power drawing me to you flames calling me to you falling into your Fire I am lost in your Heartbeat Come to me Pluto my Dark Lord of Power, take my hand and lead me through these mists into your Kingdom, into your Dark I am curious... how far down do you go? In a circle of candles I lie dreaming up at a starless Sky, from the Shadows you silently watch in the Night I am waiting, come get me I will love you if you let me I want you to take me your passion to break me your love to recreate me Keep me safe here with you I’ll reign as your Queen of Night and in your sunless, starless world I will burn so true and shine so strong, so bright I want you to own me, only you to know me a love of obsession a song of possession come to me Pluto and in your sunless, starless world I will burn so true and shine so strong, so bright Your Queen of Night. (excerpt from longer piece "Calling Pluto") Copyright statement:   Lyrics wr...

© 2025 Trying to reconcile the Jekyll and Hyde in loved ones. And secondly, I often wonder how people can carry on like normal with so much cruelty in this world. Something must be switched off or broken inside. I guess that is what happens when you push the Kind too far it snaps and shatters across the timelines until you don’t know where or when you are That’s how they train the little soldiers when they send them off to war they twist and maim the Gentle until they cannot take it anymore They leave their minds behind to escape outside and their shadow self steps in who has been burned alive and killed to survive and seen the carnage shaped by sin There’s people out there living in despair that are only half way in this realm their minds are split and they’re trained to shift when fear threatens to overwhelm So when I look around and wonder where are all the folks that are supposed to care I should not be surprised that there are so few found 'cos many are gone just the lights l...

© 2025 Where was I before I fell into this flesh sunk down into matter and drew my first breath what wishes was I dreaming before I came here to this place where I am now wandering the Darkness seeking Grace there is a sliver of memory of the Light where I am from the shiver of centuries through the night where I have gone I can almost feel again the Sun's warmth on my wings and the heavenly singing of Angels as I bent to crown a King and then I fell given a mission to help usher in the new Earth a vision I forgot so soon after my reluctant birth and deeper down into the darkness I went through the heartless demons that were sent to lead me further along the dark roads of this place away from the Sun's Light and lost now to Grace until at last at the bottom I met him King Hades himself who named me his wife in this Kingdom of Shadows sucked dry of all life I took flight in my mind where he could not follow whilst I remained chained underground and shrouded in silken sorrow and...

© 2025 There’s a Stranger in my mirror She sings me off to sleep when its 3am and dark outside but I can’t fall asleep It looks a lot like little me before I got lost in the memory of how sad things used to be I close my eyes so I can’t see Oh God if you’re hearing me I wish I could remember who I came here to be where once there was color there’s just faded black and when I look in the mirror the Stranger stares back I smile at her but her eyes are blank The world is caving in crushing my head I scream myself awake back in my bed Oh this Stranger in my mirror She won’t go away I wish I could understand what she is trying to say its like I have forgotten the tune of the songs that she sings guess I gave it all up when I lost my angel wings and little me got lost in the memory of how sad things used to be I close my eyes so I can’t see but the world is caving in crushing my head I look again in the mirror but the Stranger she is dead Copyright statement: Lyrics © 2025 Christine Jordaan....

Before Man came He was here peacefully grazing in My Light the Elders told tales of Him Ubhejane, the strong One, they named Him and so, in the flickering firelight His Legend was born His story drifting across the night sky joining those of the other Guardians – Lion, Elephant, Buffalo, and Leopard.   All was in balance.    All was well.   But as the cities grew, the forests fell darkness turned to dread I gazed down upon a brutal war when my Light was full instead   Powerless I watched the terror grow as greed crept under cover of the night the stars wept down as he was hacked alive the grasslands drenched in blood   While miles away in a shiny world where money matters more Fools count their gold and the souls they’ve killed as Death piles up on the floor   Fractured people mask the Empty with status they’ve bought but never earned to lull thirsting souls which wander lost disconnected from...

© 2025 It’s Monday morning and I have to complete this sheet saying what I did with my time last week and I can’t help but feel bleak cos to be alive but not living your time is just a crime nothing more sad than a song that got lost and now wanders my mind an unhappy little ghost is there anything more tragic than a witch with lost magic? the hills and heather are calling my name I need to go lose myself there again high up in the misty peaks where the magic Moonlight speaks or down in the golden green where the silver birch dances unseen and the swans drift on the stream I wander there in my dreams oh this timesheet if it were paper I would make it a plane and fly it out the window and not talk to it again I guess I must just trust at the right time when my Stars are aligned I’ll be set free back to the Highlands the Soulful mountains the place I long to be. Copyright statement: Lyrics © 2025 Christine Jordaan. I am the original author and creat...