God, are You there?

Written in 2014 (I think) in a time of absolute anguish when the cruelty to the Animals (crush videos, trophy hunting, fur farms, the suffering we wreak on them is endless) felt unbearable. I could not get it out my mind - this seeping wound.  I get that maybe people have karma to work off, but we also have free will.  Why does God let the Animals suffer?  I never did figure out the answer. I guess all we can do is turn up each day and try in our own little ways to make a difference for Go(o)d.  But the wound is still bleeding - because they're still being tortured 😭😭

Lyrics © 2014. Song © 2025

It’s kinda lonely down here, God
since I decided that I dreamt You
maybe that’s what all these long hours are meant for
before I relied on You to come up with a plan
maybe now it’s time I looked in the mirror
and said that I can

But before I had faith,
how do I now carry on?
the eyes in the mirror say "courage"
so I grab some and plaster it on
over this fat hole in my heart
where You used to be
until we were torn apart
by my grief at life and the world’s insanity

Or hey maybe the truth is that You dreamt me?
now this is an interesting theory
but its 4am and I am forlorn and weary,
and the eyes in the mirror are giving me a beady stare
but still I wonder if we are a good dream
or Your worst nightmare?

Oh, God if You’re out there
do You ever look down at Earth and despair?
it breaks my heart if You do
because who on Earth do You turn to?

But if all is one
and yin needs yang
and day needs night
to let us know light
is the Evil necessary
to teach us to fight?

No, sorry God, it just can’t be
there’s too many Innocents suffering for that cause
I think, God
if You’re out there
somewhere
You better push pause

So why then?
to teach us to love?
to work through the horror and
somehow rise above?

Ok, if that’s why, then how?
how do I take this rage,
that’s got me trapped in a cage
where perhaps it’s safer to be,
‘cos if you look, God, inside me
there’s an awful lot of anger
that could spell real danger
if let loose,
unless I could somehow choose to use it
in a different way but how?

How do you look at a torturer 

and know what’s he’s done
and try to love him because All is One,
to try to see through to his best inside
instead of splitting his head open wide,
with whatever is handy
or myself getting lost in the brandy?

Sorry, but it’s no longer enough to just trust You and Your plan
in fact for all that I know,
You’re waiting patiently for Man,
this nightmare experiment that went horribly wrong,
You’re waiting for us to
remember …
that we’re a song?
a melody supposed to be in tune
with Your stars, sun and moon?

and when all is in alignment
we’ll be let out of confinement?
Well then I think, if that makes sense
you better start pushing people off the I-don’t-care-fence
before all the animals and nature are gone
and it wouldn’t be really worthwhile to carry on

so God, if You’re out there,
how on Earth do we make these people care?
how do we make the people on Earth care?
Because with all this sadness
its so easy to get lost in the madness,
oh God,
are You there?

2014