Ghosts in my Head

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 © 2025



Dreaming of tomorrow

You're a ghost

just a shadow

a story of who you might want to be

hidden in the middle

I can feel that you're trouble

but there’s no place baby I'd rather be

and then its sinking time

for this crazy little heart of mine

I'm so far under

I can’t see the mess

that I'm drowning in

I'm sinking

and I need to learn how to swim

I tell myself to run

but there’s no place I can hide

I open up my head

and he's waiting there inside

Looking in the mirror

my eyes are driving me insane

trying to find an exit from this twisted little game

Think I'm crying out for Jesus

but I'm calling out your name

and its sinking time

every dream, every wasted prayer

dragging me down to the dark

and the devils waiting there

Its chaos in my head

all is spinning round and round

the price is way too high

for this reason I have found

colors fading fast

from this vampire in my mind

and its sinking time,

lost my way far underground

too late to turn this story back around

surrender to the dark

and the monsters in my heart.


Copyright statement:  Lyrics written © 2024, song created © 2025.
© Christine Jordaan. I am the original author and creative director of each song. The music and vocals were generated using AI tools licensed under a paid subscription which grants me full ownership and commercial rights to the final tracks. While I do not claim authorship of the instrumental or vocal algorithms, I retain copyright over all lyrics and the completed works as my creative output. All rights reserved.

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